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Elle
06 September 2006 @ 08:13 pm


NYC = LOVE

new york city finalized my epiphany. my dreams of sixteen years have taken a 360 degree turn from a future trapped within medical school and residencies and math and science to the magic of the english language. and here's why:


= broadway.

theater; reading; writing.
they are my life. and it's scary to be realizing that after sixteen years of the same mindset, but it would've happened sooner or later. so here we go...diving headfirst into english classes- advanced composition, survey of american literature, drama, film, moving into the AP language classes...and starting to veer from math and science. woo. this is a big change for me! but i'm happy. finally :) thinking about my future doesn't make me depressed anymore. i know what i want out of life. i want to inspire just one person, and my life will seem complete.

oh, by the way, school started.
you probably caught on to that. i'm already having a hard time waking up in the morning, but i actually think that will only get better as the year progresses. and we've started head-on. homecoming is creeping up on us, as are my responsibilities as class president! & i'm quitting my fall soccer team =/ that was huge. i have so much going on, and i had to choose my priorities. i hate doing that. but such is life...

play auditions are monday. i'm so nervous, and so excited.
and i need to get back to my homework right now. or i'll never get done. i have:
-anatomy
-trig
-film
-advanced comp
STILL left to do.

wish me luck! love you all.
forever yours,  elle.
 
 
Where are you?: spring lake
Emotion: hopefulhopeful
Song: "crash and burn" -savage garden
 
 
Elle
04 August 2006 @ 10:05 am
    six days:
      
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  = NYC with my best friend.







life right now...well, i guess there is no adjective.
lately i've been so bored. i know there is so much more out there, sometimes i just want to run, i know i don't belong trapped in this small town- but what's holding me back. youth? responsibility? what i'd be leaving behind? but maybe some things aren't meant to be discovered. what keeps us going in this life is the unknown- things we can't see or change, and never will. there are mysteries that can never be solved. like how many stars there are, for example. you can count them, but you'll never be right. and so we continue with our useless attempts at solving the puzzles of the universe- the impossible- and that's what keeps us moving as a society.

as humans- the beginning of the end started when we first set foot on this planet. i'm not going to lecture you with theories of how that came about in the first place, because that's another element that no one will EVER be sure of. so please don't tell me it was creation. but don't say it was a big explosion either. you simply don't know, and never will. that is a hard concept to grasp, as one of our natural instincts is curiousity- and i'm not quite sure how i came about being alright with that, as i'm driven crazy by not knowing something. but there are particular instances that you simply have to give in to the thought of something out there larger than life- more powerful than the human soul.



well there, that's about half of my outlook on life.









CARTEL- SAVE US
the new favorite:
Simple words we never knew,
The power behind what they put us through,
Now it's all begun
What it takes to make it real.
We're standing on the edge of this,
When our soul is gone what will we miss?
We lost what it takes to really really feel.

But the better days behind us now,
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Well I can't go on out of rhythm with our time.

We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent
Who we are, because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
Now were left with all were left is memories

But the better days behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Oh I can't go on out of rhythm with our time.

Say the words, give it all the time you need.
Let it out, and oh you say anything.
Say the words and make them count,
Say the words without a doubt.
Give us truth and nothing more,
Leave us wanting more and more.

Who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, can you save us?
I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
Can you save, can you save us?
I can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you say, you say,you'll save us?
I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.


powerful, eh?
i love it.
 
 
Where are you?: spring lake
Emotion: indescribableindescribable
Song: "save us" -cartel
 
 
Elle
19 July 2006 @ 04:31 pm
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This is the precious present, regardless of what yesterday
was like, regardless of what tomorrow may bring. When your
inner eyes open, you can find immense beauty hidden within the
inconsequential details of daily life. When your inner ears open,
you can hear the subtle, lovely music of the universe everywhere
you go. When the heart of your heart opens, you can take deep
pleasure in the company of the people around you -- family, friends,
acquaintances, or strangers -- including those whose characters are
less than perfect, just as your character is less than perfect. When you
are open to the beauty, mystery, and grandeur of ordinary existence,
you get it...that it always has been beautiful, mysterious,
and grand and always will be. This is the precious present....

-Timothy Ray Miller







thank god for my poetry book.
it's day like these that i would die without it.
and i mean that quite literally.
i'm grateful for pen&ink  =)


el fin.
 
 
Emotion: pissed offpissed off
 
 
Elle
15 July 2006 @ 03:06 pm
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HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY LOVELY!<3
(ashley nicole houle-sparrow)
 
 
Where are you?: Spring lake
Emotion: amusedamused
Song: ze birthday song
 
 
Elle
14 July 2006 @ 06:57 pm
 
 
Where are you?: sl
Emotion: sleepysleepy
Song: i'm so happy for you i could CRY